Long before there were any Shades of Grey there were The Worthington’s!!

Marcus, Meredith & Matthew Worthington are wealthy, powerful and much sought after siblings. Behind the Worthington name each are haunted by something from their past.

In the seductive world of domination and submission they are free to be who they truly are-no judgements, no betrayals. Nothing but sweet sensations and even darker passions.

Where nothing is off-limits and everything is up for negotiation, can Marcus, Meredith and Matthew find the acceptance and happiness they deserve?

Find out in The Cooperate Affairs Trilogy Carrie’s Answer, Meredith’s Awakening & Daniel’s Surrender- available in ebook & paperback.

Book 1 Carrie’s Answer    

    Corporate Affairs, Book One:

One weekend.

That’s all Marcus Worthington asks of his assistant Carrie Anderson when she resigns.

One weekend to teach her the pleasures of dominance and submission, to satisfy his never-ending craving for her and to get her out of his system. Then he’ll let her go.

Two days. That’s all Marcus has promised Carrie. But as he pushes her past the limits of pleasure and satisfies her darkest desires, she knows two days will never be enough.


Publisher’s Note: This story was previously published elsewhere and has been revised for Ellora’s Cave. Reader Advisory: Carrie’s Answer contains a ménage scene with two insanely hot men, a Big Beautiful heroine, and elements so scorching you’ll need a cold shower to recover.

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Writing the Curvy Heroine

th 2th  I am passionate about writing my Curvy girls. It was who I was for the better part of 40 years. It’s who I identify with as a woman and it’s who I still see when I look in the mirror.

One thing that has frustrated myself and others is the lack of covers with curvy women on them. There just aren’t that many from the photo image sites that I use.

Even when I look online just to find women to use on a blog post, I have some trouble. Most of the shots are lingerie shots and its usually of the same four or five models. I like to show various sizes and shapes of curvy women. Be it a size 14 or a 24 or whatever it may be. I think it’s important to show beauty in all forms and wearing more than a bra and panties.

Writing the BBW heroine is sometimes tricky for me. Do I want her weight to be an issue she needs to work through? Was she betrayed because of it? Was she insulted, taken advantage of or overlooked?

Should her self-esteem issues ever be the direct cause of conflict with the hero? I’m not real comfortable taking that route because the last thing I want for my curvy girl is to come off whiny and I can’t imagine a man having the patience to bolster someone damaged ego all the time.

What I’ve found out is that most authors in this genre are great at balancing any self-doubt our heroine has with her own self discovery that she is indeed beautiful and worth love.

There is truly nothing better than to read the journey of a hot alpha male falling hard for a curvy woman and loving everything about her body. Every hill and valley. Every bump and ripple. The reason it’s so fun is because there are indeed men like that in real life. They could be your neighbor, the guy who changes your oil, your tax attorney…my point is you might not ever know who they are but they exist.

My second favorite Curvy woman is the kind who loves herself, her body and her place in life. When she sees something she wants, she goes after it. She’s not afraid to work hard and she plays even harder. She’s tough on the outside and soft on the inside. And once her walls are down, she is yours forever.

In life as in my books, I think it takes a special man to love and appreciate a curvy woman. To understand that she hasn’t always treated well. That she might not trust so easily. That deep inside she’d waiting for the inevitable other shoe to drop. That sometimes she is fearful about her place in your world. That there are times when she can’t believe you’re in her life or that you’ve chosen her.

So boys, let me save you a little time if you’re trying to woo one of these beautiful women. First of all….Do Not tell her you aren’t like other guys. We’ve lost count how many times we’ve been told that. Those words hold no meaning anymore!

Your actions speak volumes. If you say you’re going to call, than call…If you say you’re going to stop by (unless you get hit by a bar on the way over) stop by.

If you want to tell her what you love about her save the tits and ass for the bedroom- again we know we’re rockin in that area, find something else. Be creative…there’s a lot to choose from. How her skin feels against yours, to what her eyes remind you of etc….

In my books my hero’s are proud of their women and let the world know it. They will kiss them, touch them, hold them, anywhere and in front of anyone. They are treated like the precious females they truly are, like every woman should be treated every single day of her life.

and trust me, if you treat a woman like this she will return the favor. It may take her a few weeks just because she may be in shock but once she realizes this is for real and not just so you can get laid, you will reap more rewards than you can handle. But you have to keep it up. It has to be on a consistent basis and you’ll see that its you she goes to when she wants to feel love and comfort. When she wants to laugh and relax. You will be her soft place to land and she will in turn become yours.

If for some crazy assed reason you’re woman doesn’t respond to this kind of loving then you are definitely NOT with a curvy girl!!!!!!!!! And most definitely with the wrong mate period!!!!!!!!!!!!

Every time I finish a book, I hope that everyone who happens to read it has the same kind of love and acceptance in their life and if not I always hope they will go out and find it!!!!!!!!!!!



A Lover Like No Other

sm_1031xcoq_fv1          The one thing I hate hearing more than anything else in the world is that big girls try harder in bed and that’s why guys who wouldn’t normally be with them out in public are down with them in private. It absolutely infuriates me to the point that I want to slap them into the next room.

   Listen fella’s we aren’t TRYING in bed and we sure as hell are doing anything special FOR YOU!

It’s simply that WE ARE THAT GOOD!  If your world isn’t getting rock elsewhere , you should be asking the question why not? Why doesn’t your current or past lovers make you feel like your heads about to explode?

I’ll let you in on a little secret, just because she may look like a porn star doesn’t mean she can perform like one, in fact 99 % of people don’t. 

Want to know another secret, a majority of people just aren’t that good when it comes to sex. There are a multitude of reasons for it. The first being they don’t enjoy the act itself. It’s viewed as a chore, I’ve known people who actually keep one eye on the clock, counting down the minutes until its over…their partners know it but are so happy at the chance to get off they ignore it.

 My favorite is the teacher. When she will teach him everything that two people can share, in every way possible. Where talking about what they want and what feels good is easy. From teaching someone how to properly kiss, to how soft or hard to touch. Where to go and how to get there. From the beginning to the end.

They are so egocentric they believe that you only will ever have that with them and never have it with anyone else again. As if someone how they were catalyst that turned on the sexual goddess within you.

Lovely Ladies- Don’t put up with a male saying you try harder because you’re a big girl! EVER!!!!!!!!! I don’t use the word man because frankly these men are so vain, so insecure and so worried how the world perceives them that they aren’t anywhere near close to being a man.

Fear not because what he experienced with you will never be duplicated with anyone else. Oh he will try, he will bring things up but it won’t be the same ever!!!

The powerful intimacy, the complete vulnerability and trust won’t be there. It won’t ever feel the same with a more “socially accepted” partner. A deep part of them will always have a big hole that will never be filled. They will try over and over and over but time and again it will slap them in the face. They will remember random things as odd moments. Toes, ears, laughter, their name whispered, a bite, a back massage, a cupped face. And all the other little things that stick with you, no matter how much water there is under the bridge. No matter how many years will go by.

No matter if you never hear from them or lay eyes on them again.

So girls when you hear some jerk-off saying that big girls try harder in bed what he’s really saying is that you’re the best thing he’s ever had and he won’t ever forget you. So chuckle because most likely he’ll end up with a cold little fish who couldn’t even come close to you and how you made him feel.


I dare you to finally tell truth-the whole truth!

you used to be man enough!

Is there such a thing as too much angst?

pain  How much pain is too much? Do you search out books from authors that you know write characters who have dark, painful pasts? Or do you avoid them like the plague?

Authors, is it difficult for you to put your protagonists through hell and back again?

There are some writers who thrive writing these kind of characters. They enjoy digging in deep to the bones and stripping someone bare. Exposing every thing, shame, humiliation, pain, abuse, anger. Everything a person can go through. Everything they can feel.

I’ve written a few pretty intense books, usually with my writing partner VJ Summers and let me tell you by the end I’m emotionally drained. You feel as though you’ve lived a small part of what your characters have and for me it’s an exhausting journey.

I enjoy stories that are on the dark side, but I find that I do have a point that I just can’t cross. Not because the books aren’t well written. Not because the stories are great, but because with my imagination the story will stick with me. I will think about it and it will haunt me.

Millions have read VC Andrews. I did the Flowers in the Attic series and then I read Heaven. After that I had to stop.  Not because the stories didn’t entertain me. I just couldn’t deal with the suffering her characters had to go through. I wanted to reach into the books and shout “Run…and don’t look back.”

If I wrote nothing but stories like that I’m pretty sure my DH would have to pull me off the ceiling. My heart just couldn’t take it. I mean I once read a book from a well-known author (I’m not sure if he’s considered thriller or horror) but  after I invested my time reading the book (it was so good I read it in two days) he killed the hero at the end. I threw the book across the room as hard as I could and I’ve never read anything by this person again. Which is a shame because he’s a very talented man but I was so upset by what I considered an unnecessary death of the hero (he’d gone through so much) that to this day (I read the book over 20 yrs ago) I still haven’t forgiven him.

I’ve had the same reaction to a movie on a couple of occasions. I was watching a movie ( I can’ t remember the title) with my friend Amy and the freaking hero who was trying to find out who was responsible for killing a man in a ritual in the end gets killed in the same fucking ritual. So here we are knowing that all through the movie he’s going in at the last-minute to save a woman he thinks is being abused and sacrificed only to find out that she’s in on it the whole fucking time. O.M.G- yeah if it had been my movie it would have been in pieces on the floor but it belonged to Blockbuster so instead we both kind of paced around the room, yelling and bitching about it.

Now though, I’ve lived long enough to know what my limits are. I know how far I can go when I write until I say okay that’s enough. I’m lucky in that I have a writing partner who is very apt when it come to the harder emotional stuff. She helps lead the way for me.

My question to the readers is- How much angst do you like in your books?

Authors- How difficult is it for you to write a character who is really damaged?



An Open Letter to the Men who secretly love Curvy Women-You know who you are!!!!


   thEveryone has a “type”. There’s nothing wrong with it. We’re attracted to who we are attracted to. There’s is a very large stable of types out there. Hgt, wght, hair/eye color, body shape etc…I’m a fan of to each their own.

I’m also NOT referring to the men who are proud of the fact they like a curvy girl. They show her off, they cherish her and treat her like the princess she is.

 This letter is addressed to the man who hides his deep, desire for plus-sized women. We know who you are, we see you everywhere. And there are a few things you need to understand pal.

BBW’s are not a fetish. Women are women regardless of size and shape. We want the same things. We feel the same things. Just because the package is bigger doesn’t change the inside.

Plus-sized girls are NOT grateful for your attention! Do you really believe because you’re hot that we should thank our lucky stars you give us attention. Or that we’re so thrilled to look upon your face that we will be fine never going out in public, and be fine relegated to stay within the walls of your home.

We know you really want us. That you are comfortable with us, have fun with us. You love our soft skin. Our full bodies and the way we feel next to you. You love everything about us. In fact you’ve never been happier than when your with us.

So why are you hiding us? Keeping us in the shadows? Why do you make fun of the fat girl when you’re out with your friends? Why do you date and marry women who may be perfectly nice but just don’t do it for you?

The answer is simple.

It’s because of you? That’s right-you have only you to blame.

You lack the strength of character to tell those who might give you shit over your preferences to piss off and mind their own business. You can’t tell them that if they don’t like your curvy girl then you’re no longer going to be around them.

You worry about what society thinks. A hot guy is supposed to be with a woman who looks like a model. Well the last time I checked there were plenty of models that were 14 and above. And exactly WHO is “society” anyway. DO they keep you warm at night? DO they make you laugh, take care of you when your sick or hold you when your sad?

So if you can’t be proud of the women you find the most desirable and attractive then stick to a different kind of female.

BBW’s have put up with enough shit in their life. From the time we are small, someone is always there to let us know that there is something wrong with us. We are body shamed so often that we eventually can finish the sentence of whatever asshole is giving us shit. We’ve been given every diet tip, exercise program and every kind of advice known to man.

We’ve stopped trying to explain that we aren’t lazy. We don’t eat from morning to-night. A lot of us are very healthy, our numbers prove it. Times have changed and we’re not going to take being made to feel like a frumpy, second class citizen. Desperate for attention- we aren’t. There are plenty of good, quality men in the world who like us for who we are. There are men in the world who enjoy all sizes and shapes and choose who they date based on the person and not a dress size.

We are more than worthy and you would be lucky to have us on your arm and in your bed. We deserve to be celebrated and shown off. Appreciated and wanted. We deserve our mate to proudly tell the world “This is my women!”

My point boys is this. If you feel as though you have to hide us then don’t bother with us. Let a real confident man step up and treat us the way we so richly deserve!



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A lesson for ourselves and our daughters!

          I saw this video on facebook last night and it blew me away! As an author I always try to portray my characters as confidant, smart, strong and beautiful. Why then as women in real life are we not encouraging the same thing in each other or more importantly why aren’t we teaching these things to out daughters?


Over the past year or so, I’ve realized that even though women have come a long way-we still have an even longer way to go. I was never a huge bra burning feminist. I was too young to have been part of that movement and of course far removed from the 50’s and 60’s housewife. My mom stayed home for part of my childhood and worked when my brother and I got older.

I always thought I couldn’t be a feminist unless I was a militant about it. I’ve reached the point though that I ‘m tired of society pitting women against each other. And by society I mean men. Not real men who are secure in who they are and respect women as their partners. No, I’m referring to the insecure, brutish, controlling, misogynistic ones who can’t stand to see a woman as CEO of a company, and definitely don’t want to see one in the White House.

These people set stay at home moms and working women at odds with each other. You know the argument -You can’t be a good mom if you work full time or that staying at home isn’t really a job. They love to stand back and watch us fight over this while they can work behind the scenes to take away our rights or refuse to pass legislation that would help working mothers.

Then we have the media, who perpetuate the Hollywood ideal of beauty. Have you ever seen these women in real life. They are itty, bitty, scary skinny. Botoxed,photoshopped, hair extensions, spray tanned, they have personal make-up artists, plastic surgery, it’s a place full of eating disorders and fragile egos and yet we the people buy into what they’re selling us.

As a group women don’t fight back against these things-we end up fighting each other. We feel the need to be in competition with every female around us, especially when we are younger. We are jealous, we are vengeful and we only ever end up hurting ourselves.

We need to teach our daughter’s a better way. There should be new rules when it comes to raising your daughters, things they should and should never do.


Call a woman a slut or a whore or talk about her bedroom habits. Men aren’t called that and sex is supposed to be enjoyable. Your supposed to have a very healthy sexual appetite.


We should be talking instead about her safety. Personal and sexual. We should be giving our girls the tools they need to make good decisions, not by using fear but straight up facts. She should understand that if she ever feels pressured to do or try anything she can and should say no. Teach her to kick ass not be a victim. Show real her that real strength isn’t in your fist but it’s in your mind and in your spirit.


Fight over a man-never, ever, ever. I can’t stress that enough. Don’t be THAT desperate girl. If a man is allowing 2 women to fight over him, he is totally NOT worth it. He allows it because it makes him feel good about himself. What could feel better then to have women fighting over you? (It’s why I hate The Bachelor) He doesn’t really care anything about either of you if he’s letting it continue. If he’s leading one of you on. It’s a trap. The we can be friends line is just another way of saying “I don’t want you right now but just in case this doesn’t work out, you’ll be waiting in the wings.” Teach your girls never to be someone’s 2nd choice. There are too many worthy men out there to fight over one!


Teach her that a man doesn’t define who she is. A man is supposed to be her partner. They should lift each other up. Be there for each other when things are tough. Treat each other with the utmost respect. They should have separate interests. They should always have laughter together. They should be able to share their deepest secrets without judgement…Period…To me if you can’t tell your partner everything because you’re afraid of how they’ll react, you’re in the wrong relationship and it either be a lonely, shallow one or it won’t last. She should never be in a rush when it comes to making the big commitment-if they are meant to be, it won’t matter if they wait a few years before they exchange rings. Going into a life together , I think it’s the most important thing that she and her partner have the big issues (life goals, life styles, parenting styles, sexual desires, interests…etc) should be known. It’s not fair to anyone once the ring goes on for one of these things to rear its ugly head and you discover that you’re aren’t on the same page. And where you may get along on most everything else, if one of these things are off it will be like a giant black cloud looming over your head for the rest of your life.


Criticize how she looks and don’t allow her to criticize how other girls look either. Our girls need to be confident with themselves but NOT at the expense of another female. Never compare her to another girl. She’s not anyone else so don’t do it. Even small comments have a lasting impact. I once asked my daughter why she didn’t wear make-up and the hurt on her face made me feel like the WORST mother on the planet.


Praise her beauty because EVERY girl is beautiful. Teach her to be healthy by example. Teach her to love herself no matter what size she is. I get really tired of people assuming that if you’re a plus-size woman, you must be lazy or eat 3000 calories a day….I know plenty of people who exercise and eat normally and are still curvy. We need to keep in mind that there are indeed things like genetics, chemicals & hormones in our foods, medications that play havoc with our body system functions, chronic diseases, jobs, stress and a myriad of other things that affect our lives in a pretty big way and we may not even be aware of it.

I’m lucky, my daughter has a pretty easy-going personality and doesn’t let much get to her. She’s a curvy girl and has no issue with it.  She walks 3 or 4 miles a day. She loves her red hair-which I’m thrilled about because when I was younger gingers were teased all the time-and she is one of the kindest girls I’ve ever known. She’s taught me more about acceptance of myself and about caring for others than anyone else in my life. She’s still innocent in so many ways, life hasn’t knocked her around and its nice to see things through her eyes on a daily basis. Take time to spend with your girls. Don’t treat them like your friend because you’re not. Do show them and tell them how proud you are of them, how strong they are, how smart and beautiful they are.


In the end we are the biggest influence in our daughters lives. We are there as they grow. They do pull away once the teens hit but don’t lose faith. If you’ve given them the tools they need when they were younger they might surprise you. They will stumble and they may even fall. You will be the bad guy when you have to give them consequences(don’t ever be afraid to do this, too many people now don’t want their kids to be mad, or hurt or to hate them and you aren’t doing them any favors by giving in) They will say they hate you and other mean things that make you want to cry-I’ve been through it. You just take a deep breath and know that it won’t always be that way.

I loved the message of the video above. Trying to live up to a ridiculous ideal is insane. No amount of make-up will cover up a flawed personality. Perfect hair, perfect clothes, perfect bodies, perfect homes don’t hide a selfish, self-serving, self-centered person. Beauty fades, bodies sag. Perfect homes don’t really impress anyone (Most people gush to your face and then SHRED you behind your back about your need to be a show off )

Have your daughter look in the mirror with no make-up and tell you what she likes about her face. What is beautiful and unique to her-don’t let her tell you nothing. If you have to, go first and do the same thing. I know for some it might not be easy but try. The more you do it, the more you believe it and soon enough whenever you look in the mirror you won’t be seeing the flaws, only the perfections. I’ve done this and it was hard at first. I’m not a fresh-faced 20 yr old anymore. The wrinkles are getting more pronounced and that can be a little hard to take…lol..but I like my eyes. I used to always wish I had blue eyes like my brother. He was a tall, blonde haired, blue-eyed, thin guy and it pissed me off that I was round, brown hair and brown-eyed. I died my hair every shade from bleach blonde to dark purple and now I’ve finally reached a place where I like my dark hair and eyes and pale skin. My eyes are a little larger, flecked with a bit of green and I’m lucky to have long lashes. So that’s what I like about me….What do you like about you?

We need to teach our girls that as women we need to support each other, be there for each other not compete, not sabotage, not damage each other. We need to inspire our girls to run away from women who will run over anyone or anything to get what they want. Who have no regard for others. Who love to hurt, humiliate and put down other women. Who think they’re better, somehow superior or better than other women. Who revel in the pain of others and find joy in it. I’ve known some twisted females like this and all I can say is that they have reaped what they’ve sewn and will continue to until the day they die. We can do better!!!!!!!!!!

Our girls need to learn to express themselves and feel good about it. Know that she’s beautiful no matter what. If she has a purple mohawk and wears combat boots, if she’s a jeans and t-shirt girl, if she’s a band geek, if she’s into sports, or academics. If she’s tall or short. Big or small. If her skin is dark or very pale, if she has acne or freckles. If her hair is curly or straight. If she’s tattooed or pierced. If she’s gay or straight. If she works or stays at home. WHATEVER she is, celebrate her!!!! Be proud of her!!!

Our daughters need to know they can achieve anything they set their mind to with a little hard work they can make things happen. They should know they don’t NEED a man to be a complete person, to be secure, to be wealthy, to be special, to be needed, to have a purpose, to be beautiful, to be confident, to make a difference, to make the world a better place, to own a home, to travel the world to do or be anything they want to be.


Let’s give our daughters what we may never have had. To be confident, to be proud and to feel beautiful not because other people made them feel that way but because THEY FEEL THAT WAY ABOUT THEMSELVES. Make-up, clothes and hair DO NOT make the woman!!!








Writing BBW Romance!!!!



‘Back when I was younger, my teens and 20’s, being a BBW wasn’t considered a good thing. The clothes sucked because apparently fashion designers just didn’t get the fact that us curvy girls liked to look just as good as any other women. It was a rough time being a plus sized women and you had to learn to accept yourself just as you were. My self-esteem grew leaps and bounds the older I got. Plus-sized stores popped up everywhere. Finally there were clothes that fit and weren’t made of polyester.

Now here we are in the 21rst century and wow have things come a long way in a fairly short amount of time. While the media is still focused on thin and perfect, there are plenty of sites that show you what pictures look like before and after retouching. THERE is ALOT of retouching going on out there. Some stars that you thought were flawless really have some of the same issues all women have. Ripples in their thighs, a tummy bump, lines around their eyes. And in a way I feel sorry for them. The pressure to fit in with society’s “ideal” must be unbearable at times.

I lost a significant amount of weight. I had to for my health. Things were difficult for me and i was in a lot of pain, all the time. The ironic thing is that I had more confidence as a plus-sized woman than I do now! I lost some of my curves and I miss them. My clothes fit funny and I know look like a board. It’s another lesson is the grass isn’t always greener on the other side!

Since the explosion of ebooks, the genre’s available have grown to include everything under the sun. Before I wrote, I used to scour sites looking for stories about BBW’s. I was one and I wanted to read romances where women who looked like me, were loved by hot guys who swept them off their feet. I found a few and would read them until they fell apart. When erotic romances made their debut, BBW was included in their drop down menu’s. I gobbled them up as fast as I could.

When I started writing, it was important for me to write about BBW heroines. It’s who I was for the majority of my life. It’s what I identified with, and still do. I like to shatter the assumption that a plus-sized beauty can’t get a hot boyfriend (which has always been a bunch of B.S) It’s so much fun showing that BBW’s are sexy, sensual, gorgeous, femme fatale, smart, active, confident, and can take a man to places he’s never been before.

The standard of beauty has changed and now encompasses all women-regardless of size. But I will always write about BBW’s. Because when I look in the mirror, that’s who I see. And letting a love story unfold where the hero is so taken by one he can’t think of anything else is awesome.

I’ve always been told to write what I love and what I love are stories with wonderful curvy women and the men who’d move the world just to be with them.