Thank You!

I’ve been a bad blogger. There has been a several stressers lately. Without going into detail, I’ll say family, friends, sickness and owning your own business has finally exploded.

It’s been going on for while and without thinking, I find that I’ve fallen into some bad habits. I thought I was feeling pretty damn good. I’d lost 30 pounds. I hadn’t cried in a long time. I was feeling a little too happy.

I want to say a sincere Thank-you for pointing it out to me.

I came home and took an inventory of my medication and realized that I haven’t taken it like I should. While not a conscious decision, it’s not a good thing if I miss them.

Shit builds up. The more you push it down the worse it ends up being. Because you find that you could explode and take your stress out on someone else.

I was proven right that  “time (doesn’t) makes you forget the bad and only remember the good.” No matter when you’re told that. Because when people aren’t happy in their life, they will remind you that the past, as they  remember it is your fault. Even if they were snowed by someone else’s LIES. And even if they themselves weren’t honest to anyone.

I’m grateful I was reminded of the things that don’t rule my life.  But, I’ve also come to realize that I’m not going to tell someone what they want isn’t important.

I also realize that I’ve been angry over the past few weeks. Yeah I know part is hormonal, but it’s mostly about stress.

The last thing I want is to be an angry person again nor do I want to cause anyone any pain. While their was some petty juvenile mud slung my way, I feel more compassion then anything else. I’d rather love then hate. I’d rather feel bad for what they may be going through.

Through all the B.S I still have been given a lot over the years. When your happy that your doing what you want, aren’t blaming the world ( and yes I’ve done this very thing and won’t go back again.) for the difficulties you put yourself in, and  take care of yourself, the past doesn’t have power over you anymore.

Sometimes there actually isn’t an ulterior motive. Sometimes it’s only a hello.





Exotic Eye Candy

Black hair, bronze bodies, strong jaws and perfect lips. These are a few of my favorite things. Enjoy these beautiful, perfect men.

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1 Year of Gratitude

1 year ago today, I made one of the scariest decisions of my life. I bought a book store. I had retail experience in my 20’s but didn’t really have a clue how to run a small business.

It’s been a year of learning and growing. One I wouldn’t have had without the support of my family and friends. It came at the perfect time. I had a big emotional hole in myself and never thought I’d be able to fill it again.

Being here everyday, working to make it look the way I wanted, kept me so busy that thoughts that used to haunt me started taking a back seat. Old negative feelings that I had blamed on circumstances were slowly fading.

The actual physical work in the store was only the beginning. Customers old and new came in. Day after day. New faces , who’ve become not only regulars but good friends.

Thank you hardly seems adequate when it comes to how grateful for every person who walks through the door. We have fantastic people who come in, have a seat and talk. I’ve been really surprised by the love and even gifts from some of them.

Whether someone spends a $1.50 or $120.00, we treat everyone the same. Hopefully they know they are appreciated and it’s because of them that I’m in business.

The positive impact on my life has been pretty dramatic as well. We all have those really bad days but mine are few and far between. Being helpful and kind. Saying Hello and Thank-you or even something as simple as smiling has help to lift that dark cloud that used to hover above me.

I may never be a millionaire, but finding peace is priceless. I’m pretty happy. I know I’m a much better person than I’ve been in years. I prefer to see the good in people versus the rotten parts. I’ve found something to put my heart and energy into.

The only downside, the one thing I haven’t been able to recover is writing. A few years ago, I couldn’t stop the ideas, the hours of tapping away on the keyboard. This isn’t the case anymore. I try not to think about it too often because it only drudges up stuff I don’t want to get into. At this point I’m not sure if I’ll ever write again. It’s the one thing that I’m missing in my life but with all the good that has come my way, I refuse to focus on this one thing. It’s sad for sure, and I’m a little bitter that my love for writing romances has pretty much disappeared. I wish I could explain why it hasn’t come back but the reasons aren’t important.

I’m grateful. To my friends, my family and too all the wonderful people who come to the store. Karma has been kind to me this past year and gives me hope for an even better 2nd year.



Newsletter for Booksigning at My Store

      Paperbacks n’ Things

Store Hours

Tuesday-Friday 10:00 a.m.-6 p.m.

Saturday 10:00 a.m.-6 p.m.

Sunday & Monday 12:00p.m.-4p.m.

8027 Wayne Rd., Westland, MI 48185 (Phone & Fax) 734-522-8018


1 Year Anniversary Celebration
Kelli’s Corner

I can’t believe it’s almost been a year since I purchased the store. I’m thankful every single day that I’ve been given this opportunity. I want to say THANK YOU – to all returning customers and all of our new customers.

Book Club

The 3rd Saturday of the month is when our book club meets.

6:00 p.m.

At the store. It’s a blast!

Store Policy

For every book you bring in, you can purchase a used paperback at 70% off cover price.

Most used Trade-sized books are $3.50 unless otherwise marked.

Used books with a price don’t receive any additional % off.

New books are up to 205 percent off.

If you’re looking for something and we don’t have it, we can order a new copy at up to 20% off.

Up to 25% off when you pre-pay.



Come celebrate during the month of April.

During April we will be having a lot of fun things going on during the month.

Special sales every week. Weekly basket and gift certificate drawings for anyone who spends $10.00 or more!

Ending the month, we are having a Book Signing with Best-selling Authors :

S.E. Smith

And local Best Sellers,

K.S Adkins & H.A.Fortman.


Join us on April 30th from 1-4 p.m.

Come meet these fantastic authors and have sit down and chat. We will have plenty of copies of their books.



S.E. Smith is a New York Times & USA Today best-selling offer of futuristic romances. Her stories are rich and romantic thrill rides. Strong alpha males meet their match with her feisty heroines.

She can be found at –

Detroit’s own

K.S Adkins.

K.S is the author of the Detroit After Dark Series.

These romances are dark and gritty. Set in Detroit they feature Heroines’ who are tough and seeking justice on their terms. They don’t need a men to exact their revenge but for the right man, the protective wall around their heart can be pierced.

H.A Fortman

H.A. Fortman is a local author as well. She writes romantic thrillers set on earth as well as the stars.

Imagine if the Zodiac Killer wasn’t from Earth!

H. A mixes action with romance. Strong heroines and equally strong men fill the pages of her

UGS Constellation Series



Join us on April 30th.



Wishing you all a wonderful Easter,




Merlene &


Back to books

I’ve made the mistake of over sharing. Talking about really personal issues and feelings. Most of the time I really don’t think about how it will appear to people reading my blog, but since my goal over the last few years is to be positive, it goes against that when I write about things that annoy me, make me angry etc…

I’m taking a break from issuing my personal edicts about things in my life- with the exception of my writing, books, music and my store. I’ve seen way too many people getting vilified for their opinions.

It’s a bit confusing that so many are strong in what they say and then are pissed when  those who disagree can turn into tit for tat ugliness online. Free speech comes with the possibility of catching hell. It’s hypocritical to wave the banner of free speech and when you’re confronted with opposition you cry that rights are being infringed upon. Some don’t repsect opposite opinons and it’s foolish to try and change how others feel- also a little arrogant.

I will stand with anyone in their right to speak their mind, unfortunately the fallout is messy and ugly and a lot of times brings out the worst in us. The internet is a cruel mistress and I’d rather believe in the good of people than in the worst.

I’ll be focusing on the things I love, the people who make life happy, and the music that fills me with story ideas.


Finally! Body Acceptance.

I’ve often talked about my gastric bypass experience. It’s been a long five and a half years,  what it’s done physically and mentally to me. I’ve gotten my health issues under control, there will always be little glitches along the way but I’m much better equipped to handle them.

One of the biggest challenges has been learning to accept my body for what it is and not what I dreamed it would be. When you go from a size 24 down to a size 8 and lose 150 lbs in less then a year, things aren’t what you’d expect them to be.

I thought my life would change for the better. That all the missing pieces would naturally come together. I dreamed my self-esteem would rise to epic proportions and everything I wanted would not only come true but would be more than I ever dreamed.

What really happened – as the weight melted away so did my confidence, my joy and my hopes for the future. For myself, my weight was a buffer from the shit storm of life. I could always blame my weight for why people hurt me, why things didn’t go my way. Suddenly, I couldn’t say that.

In fact my world pretty much imploded and everything I knew, everything I’d thought, was gone. At my lowest point, I believed I was a horrible, ugly and an unlovable person.

I blamed everyone and everything around me. Why wasn’t I loved? Why wasn’t I appreciated? Why wasn’t life getting better by the day?

It’s so easy to get lost in the thoughts swirling around in your head. You look to other people to make your life whole. Looking to others was a mistake that’s taken me a few years to come to grips with and the lessons learned.

You can’t latch onto others to feel worthy, beautiful, kind, and secure. It’s a deeply personal process that every single person should learn. Those feelings have to come from within. Trying to prove to other people those things about you, never satisfies you. You have to believe those things about yourself.

Once you do, once you except yourself and no longer make apologies or validation from anyone else, do you truly live and love. Because you’re no longer looking outward for approval of the way you look, the way you feel and your importance in this world.

It’s not selfish to take care of yourself. Trust me if you don’t take care of you, it usually ends up in disaster.

There will be days when I question myself. But where my appearance is concerned, I’ve learned to wave the big middle finger at anyone who has an issue. I’m almost 48, I’ve had children and surgeries. I have scars and stretch marks but those things don’t define me. They aren’t who I am. They are merely the remnants of what I’ve been through in life. They are part of learning to get better and be better.

In accepting my body, my appearance, I don’t live for what anyone else thinks. I don’t apologize for what I feel. My physical flaws are no longer flaws in my mind.  They are lessons that I’ve learned through out my life.

Loving yourself in your own skin is what makes you beautiful. It doesn’t matter what size jeans you wear. Beauty is beauty and there is no standard when it comes to that. I’ve known those with perfect bodies who possess a heart of stone and I’ve known others who don’t, who are the most gorgeous creatures on earth. If people don’t want to be seen in public with you, drop them and fast. If they cut you down and make you feel less than a woman shut the door.

It may feel like the end of the world but feeling good about who you are, just as you are with no conditions brings such sweet, sweet freedom. There will always be moments when you doubt the way you look. During these times, feel the feelings and then realize that it was just a moment, a blip on the screen, put it behind you and know that you are indeed beautiful, you do count, you are important and fuck anyone who tries to tell you otherwise.







Checking Out!

I’ve had it. I’m done with the lies, the greed, the condescension and the nastiness of politics. For the first time since I was old enough to vote, I will not be voting and I doubt I will ever take part of the broken, disgusting process ever again. Even listening to the news or reading articles makes me feel slimy.

Every divisive word spouted off no matter who you like has reached my threshold of what I can tolerate. The lies that roll off the tongues of candidates like butter is sickening. They all lie in some form or fashion and they are certain that we’ll fall for their B.S.

People are choosing candidates based on single issues versus the whole. The misinformation is at an all time high and at this point who the HELL knows what is actually truthful or just wishful thinking. We are pandered to in the most basic way. These people play on our fears and our greed.

I’ve been trying to rid myself cynicism for years now, unfortunately it came rushing back last fall when all these fucking idiots decided to run. The extreme right/left are pandered to and the majority of us who are in the middle are fucked.

Orwell’s 1984 has never been closer to reality than ever before and if you think I’m joking pick up the book. That book which seemed too fantastical when it was written in 1948 is becoming our reality. The have’s rule the world and the have not’s are being left to slowly fade away.

The very idea that in the 21st century, an entire city (Flint) in my home state was poisoned in order to save money is beyond understanding.

I’m not going to worry about the government. I can’t. They’ve deserted the majority in favor of the powerful and wealthy minority and unless there is some kind of radical change, it doesn’t matter who gets in office.

Maybe one day there will be a “Marie Antoinette” moment when those of us who live who’ve the rich gained their wealth off our and our families back get tired of hearing “Let them eat cake.” Rise up as one, not as political parties and toss them all out, but until that day comes, I’m unplugging.

Even if you don’t think about it on a daily basis, watching debates or listening to them blabber on Sunday shows always drags up feelings of dread, anger, apathy and disgust. I don’t want to be part of a process that doesn’t give a shit about my family, my friends or my loved ones.

Every ruling superpower has fallen since the beginning. There was a time when Rome ruled the known world and fell. It’s happen over and over again. Each one thinking they were too big, too powerful to ever lose, EVERYONE OF THEM.

I prefer to spend my time being happy, being whole and being a good and kind person, not someone filled with anger, and regret.

On a positive note, we’ve had some snow this week with a little more to come but starting on Monday it’s up in the 50’s and 60’s and all the awesome things about Spring will begin and all will be right in my little part of the world.

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